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Wednesday, 1 October 2008

Sigh...


Do you ever feel like you have waaay too much to think about? I feel that way lately. Too much to think about, and very little of it can I write about. Sigh. I can write, but it's not the kind of thing you broadcast to the world, you know? Anyway, things lately have been - challenging. I shouldn't be surprised really, considering I am on the verge of a major life change. These sorts of things always happen when life gets to one of those. Now you're all curious about my major life change, well I'm not quite ready to tell everybody in the universe yet, but the only people who really keep up on my blog - probably already know everything about it anyway. However, the details will all come out for everybody in the universe - late next week. So, if you have no idea what I'm talking about, hold your horses. You will soon, and then I'll blog away. I had a really great week-end, and visited some loved ones I haven't seen in a long time. Well, seen, just haven't really spent any quality time with them. Also, I went to the Cardston Temple on Saturday, and enjoyed it very much. For those who don't know much about my religion, the temple is a place where some members of our faith go to receive personal direction, and guidance from God. It's kind of a place set apart from the world, and it's like going on a vacation where it's just you and God. I needed that, and there - I found what I was looking for.



Since then, and since emerging into the real world again, my personal life has become complicated, and I think that the adversity I face is definitely due to the life change I am making. There are those in my immediate acquaintance who do not want me to grow, or change, or live my own life. They never have... Well that's tough beans. I'm moving on, I'm growing, I'm changing, and I'm going to live my life. I know you're all thinking I've become a lesbian or something - rest assured, I've not become a Mormon Lesbian. I'm just doing something I've thought about doing for a very very long time, and frankly, I should have done it a long time ago. However, there is a time for everything, and my time is now. I've had a lot of experiences in my life that have led me to this point, this exodus. I've become a different person than I was before - in many respects - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually (should have mentioned that one first), and perhaps I wasn't ready to move on until now; and that's just what I am doing, regardless of what other people want - so live with it.

5 comments:

atlas too said...

...to everything there is a season, a time to every purpose under heaven...

atlas

Amanda said...

Since we are such close friends and my opinion should be the one you take closest to heart here it is. (lol) I think you are headed in the right direction. I am so excited and happy for you.

Dyane said...

I'm excited for you too!

Angelique said...

I'm so proud of who you've become and what you are doing...you have grown so much in the last year, well, since we started keeping in touch again. You have no idea how happy I am that we have reconnected again. You're a wonderful friend and I'm standing beside you with all the changes you're about to make in your life. I love you Becks :)

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